Galliyan

WE OFTEN HEAR THE TERM “THE PAST IS THE PAST” BUT THE REALITY IS THAT EVERY PAST ROAD AFFECTS HOW WE NAVIGATE THROUGH OUR CURRENT ROAD.

 

            AFTER A 3-4 YEARLONG RELATIONSHIP ENDED I WENT ON THIS WEIRD JOURNEY. I WOULD MEET BEAUTIFUL WOMEN WITH EVEN MORE BEAUTIFUL SOULS, BUT I WOULD END UP FINDING A REASON TO NOT TAKE IT TO THE NEXT LEVEL. AFTER YEARS OF EXCUSES I CAME ACROSS A REALIZATION: IT’S NOT YOU IT’S ME (PUN INTENDED).

            YES IT IS ME, BUT MY PREVIOUS EXPERIENCES HAVE SHAPED MY THINKING TO RUN AWAY FROM TRUE FEELINGS, LOVE OR ANYTHING SERIOUS. SMALL THINGS THAT HAPPEN IN THE PAST ARE SEEDS BEING PLANTED TO BLOSSOM INTO BIGGER ISSUES DOWN THE ROAD. CALL IT COMMITMENT ISSUES, CALL IT BEING A FUCK BOY OR CALL IT JUST HAVING FUN — ALL THIS STUFF STEMS FROM DEEP-ROOTED ISSUES AND MAYBE PAIN YOU DO NOT WANT TO FEEL EVER AGAIN. IT’S OUR WAY OF TAKING THE DETOUR OR YIELDING INTO FEELINGS, WHICH MAKES A VERY NATURAL PROCESS VERY PROCESS LIKE. LOVE HURTS WHEN IT’S NOT RECIPROCATED, BEING ALONE SUCKS WHEN YOU SEE HAPPY COUPLES AROUND YOU (TEAM THIRD-WHEELER), BUT HURTING PEOPLE BECAUSE YOU WERE HURT IS FUCKED UP. TO THE ONES I’VE HURT, I’M SORRY FOR WHAT IT’S WORTH AND TO THE ONES TRAVELING ON THIS ROAD. SIT BACK AND JUST REFLECT, HAS YOUR PAST CHANGED HOW YOU SCOPE LOVE? HOW MANY PEOPLE HAVE YOU DAMAGED ON THIS JOURNEY TO MASK YOUR OWN PAIN?

            THE PAST IS THE PAST, MOVE PAST IT, MASK IT, BUT EVENTUALLY THE PAST CATCHES UP. WHEN YOU ARE DRIVING AND YOU HIT A POTHOLE, YOU DON'T STOP DRIVING. YOU QUICKLY ADAPT, SO NEXT TIME YOU ARE ABLE TO AVOID POTHOLES. WITH LIFE YOU JUST HAVE TO FIND THE RIGHT PERSON TO NAVIGATE THROUGH THIS ROAD OF LIFE WITH — MAYBE SOMEONE WHO HAS THE ABILITY TO RECONSTRUCT THE ROADS YOU’VE TRAVELED AND MAKE NEW MEMORIES WITH YOU